By Radio.com Staff
Selena Gomez took to social media to share her feelings after a difficult show in Indonesia.
“Tonight I felt extremely unauthentic, unconnected to both myself and my music,” she began. “I’ve never really felt like my materials, wardrobe or a video could define me. I act on a moment and fear something that hasn’t happened. I’m stagnant, I stay still and don’t just sit with myself first and ask ‘is this where I am, whole heartedly?'”
“I’ve always told the truth,” she continued. ” I’m always true to my word, I’ve shown who I am but I need to rethink some areas of my life creatively and personally. I had to get that out.”
It’s worth noting that Selena captioned the post “Not being negative about anything I’ve done. I’m grateful for every single moment I get here -Indonesia you were LOUD and clearly inspiring. Love you so much.”
What exactly motivated the post is unclear, but a fan captured Gomez giving an emotional address to fans at the show.
“The next song, before I go home, is a song that’s so important to me because I get really frustrated,” she said, referencing “Kill Em With Kindness.” “I get stupid sometimes. I say things that I don’t mean, or that come out wrong just because I care so badly.”
“I do know that deep down in my heart that I have to believe that we can love each other and always be kind no matter what it takes in us,” she continued. “I believe that we can do that, no matter what.”
See Selena’s full post and the fan footage below.
Selena talking to the crowd in Jakarta. https://t.co/2mMqbpv1Gp—
🙂 (@gomezmalikteam) July 23, 2016